I swiped right because I had to know you. I didn’t want to know you, but I HAD to know you. You have the same name as my big brother; one of my biggest supporters in life. Why did you say you loved me 3 days in, was it because I told you were incredibly pretty, one too many times. Seems backwards. I was okay with it, because I HAD to get to know you, for some reason. What was it about you that I had to get to know? Or was it something I had to learn about myself? Did I have to learn — to learn what I wanted and what I couldn’t live with, in a “RELATIONSHIP”. How can someone have a relationship over text…but some do; some have…I know some who have. You made me feel bad for kissing someone else, when I hadn’t even heard your voice. That’s what makes me feel the dumbest, and I HATE IT when someone makes me feel dumb. I LET you make me feel bad for somehow making a commitment to a GHOST, who inevitably ghosted me. So maybe what I am learning is, that when a person tells you that they told their mom about you, or that they wanted their son to know about you, that it’s all BS. You sent me a picture of you son!!
Maybe I didn’t believe it enough and that’s why I was ACTUALLY spared. Maybe I wasn’t ghosted, but I was protected by the Holy Spirit. I asked God for His protection, and you (the snake) never showed. That’s the most comforting thing in the whole experience…as it should be, right? How cool is that? So maybe I should thank you, for whatever you did. Cause none of it makes sense and yet I am at peace to His Glory.
My worship music in much louder today. I might need to give the country station a break, because that shit manifests itself a little too much, if you’re not careful. lol